If you wait, the person is bound to come
(Seo Eun Gi)
Just as how she returned to his side when he patiently awaited her.
One day, a woman walked into my life.
I hurt her deeply with the harshest words possible.
I pushed her away as much as I could.
But, she still came back to me.
She is so much like me.
I look at myself often when I look at her.
She has the physical wounds that I have.
The tears that fill my brain are flowing through her heart as well.
I gave her those wounds.
I made her cry.
I should not have met her.
(Kang Maru)
Jae Gil: What are you talking about? You made such a tantrum about not moving out of this house, what is it now that we are suddenly moving? Ma Ru: Seo Eun Gi came back, didn't she? Jae Gil: Were you waiting for Seo Eun Gil all this while? You think that Seo Eun Gi will come back and that she will come back to find you, so you couldn't move? Do you like Seo Eun Gi? Not how you used her to get revenge on Jae Hee, but you like her for real?
And I'll definitely meet Eun Gi in the next life. When I do, I want to date like others, and be able to love like others. I think I prayed for those things. What kind of person she is... I would ask those who know her. And at times, I'd hang around outside her house. And at times, because I want to look good in front of her, I'd learn the old school "trot" dance that her father likes. And learn baduk and learn how to eat all different kinds of foods without being picky. And at times, I'd memorize all the songs of her favorite pop artists. And at times, I'd go to the place she frequents and wait for her the whole day. I'd tell her I miss her and I'd say I long for her when I do, I'd feel excitement, and gratitude. To date like other people, I think I prayed for it. And I... say my prayers again. Thank you. Now I'm... happy.
(Kang Ma Ru)
Another one of Song Joong Ki's works that captivated me, and leaves my mind clinging onto the drama each full day. It's worth it, to lead your heart on an emotional roller-coaster ride. It's been a long time since I've felt like this, drama after dramas I have anticipated :)
Eun Gi asked me. At that time, in the tunnel,... why didn't I avoid the car? Even though I told Eun Gi that I don't remember, I remember the reason very clearly.
At the time, I was exhausted by the world and by my lot in life, and this present life of mine even if it ended this way, I thought it wouldn't make a difference.
And that in the next life, I would definitely meet Eun Gi and then the ordinary kind of love that everyone does, the simple kind of love that regardless of who they are and what they do in the world get to experience. That ordinary kind of love. I want to start all over again. This is what I think I prayed to God.
(Kang Ma Ru)
Had a surprise belated birthday today with them misses. HAha >.< They arrived at my doorstep and saw me in my Winnie the Pooh boxers! We then had a great cake cutting session and filling lunch at New York New York :) We spent most of our time reminiscing on our Cchms days and urging the remaining singles to get a boyfriend. (including me)
When they asked about my ideal boyfriend, I replied immediately; charismatic. During the night, while walking home with my family, we all had a brief moment to ourselves while enjoying the moonlight. And I suddenly remembered my ideal type of guy; A guy whom people seldom notice but retains a charisma that I recognise.
I fathomed this fact while recapping how I used to dislike sharing my object of love with others, such as my pets. I felt the same way whenever I first notice pretty things which people would come to like after a while. Overtime, my fondness towards them would dissipate. And I'd had always felt that the least brightest star is the most mesmerising.
This sounds selfish but at least I don't expect him to love only me. There will be a time when he will come to love another. But before that happens, I'd hope for only me to be able to understand him, and to be the one that loves him the most.
JANG WOO HYUK FT. JO HYUN AH - SHOUTING OUT TO MEMORIES
A friend is one that knows you as you are, understands where you've been, accept what you've become, and still, gently allows you to grow.
(William Shakespeare)
Yesterday night was great, today was good and tomorrow will be better. I look forward to an adventurous year ahead!! A year for me, to finally appreciate the 19 year old me. Something which I have not done since a long time ago, since I was 6?
I sensed that lately, the people around me have changed. And to think I didn't believe in that. I sincerely hope I haven't changed much, personality wise. Though I'm certain my thoughts now are far from how they'd been in primary school. In fact, I don't recall anything I did in my primary school days except studying and tuning in to the Kids Channel after school. I do reminisce the home-cooked meals and how I viewed my family, them living the adult world. Now, I'm one of them :)
I miss myself, as a child. Always happy and bubbly little Jocelyn, whose smile and scrunched-up face could light up almost anyone's day. The little girl who would always look forward to meeting her cousins, so that the 4 puny ones could embark on another exciting journey. The nights were lovely, as she would spend them wrestling with her brother, sneaking up on her sister's online conversation, praying and praising the lord with her older sister and climbing into her parents' bed in the middle of the night. I'd prefer to live the rest of my life just like that.
#Memories
A person's a person. No matter how small.
(Dr. Seuss)
Kyung Soo (to fans): I REALLY thank you all. Really thankful… Really, really. Jong In: How many times must you say "really"? Kyung Soo: I’m nervous so I’m like that.
This new year, is a snug and cosy one. Its warm atmosphere surrounds one, spending time with family instead of partying out with friends. It is a surprise too! I thought I would miss the local and annual, live fireworks which welcomes the new year.
Yet, I was able to view live fireworks at the comfort of my home as the performance was also brought to my town's stadium, of which I had a full clear view of. Honestly, I deemed the fireworks performance at the national countdown as more grand, and at the same time, the one at our stadium was much more beautiful.
Its beauty was subtle but captivating, little by little. Just as how I'm going to enjoy my life in 2013, appreciating every step little by little. And one of my favourite numbers is 13 :), just saying.
