let the storm pass

ERIK SATIE - GYMNOPEDIE NO. 1

I'm just gonna vent my frustrations here. I hate it when people treat another person like dirt. Being a victim myself, I feel like whatever i do, isn't appreciated. But everyday, I go through some form of reproaching, whether at work or even from my closest ones.

I have thought about it, whether I'm an easy target for others to vent their frustrations just because I'm too quiet (or nice?),because I'm meek?, because I'm the youngest at home, or because they are superior to me at work.

Fact is, people habitually direct their anger and frustrations at someone else, thinking that it may lessen their own?! Or simply because they want others to feel their dejection?


There was a period in my life (7 to 11) when I was more comfortable around adults or younger children, because I felt like I couldn't keep up with my peers in terms of their topics of interests, or to simply socialise with them. I became pretty introvert, having only a small circle of friends.

Anyway, during those times, I felt that it was the adults who aren't judgemental (probably cause I was only a child at that time). However, ironically, now that I am an adult, I find that we are the most judgemental of all. We juddge others based on their appearances, education level, capabilities, sociability, confidence, blah blah blah all that sh*t.

Not saying that I'm very judgemental, but I just don't wnna be too hypocritical by excluding myself. I judge people sometimes too, based on first impressions, but I don't let that affect my views on them. And I realised that many times, we are very wrong with our first impressions! Like if you truly observe, another person, you'll find a lot of wondrous attributes of him/her.


So it brings me back to my ranting~ Just because I may seem blur or not as street smart as some people, it doesn't mean I'm a dumbass! There are times when I know stuffs too, but don't flaunt them around. And when others question your capabilites or usefulness, it really hurts one's self-esteem!

And can we stop with all the blaming?! I'm not a deity who can predict the good from bad outcomes. And when the same mistakes are made by someone, I know I wouldn't jump at the opportunity to put them down.

So i think every social environment could use a bit more of respect, patience and chances given. Cause each one of us is definitely good with something, maybe not the best, but just to acknowledge that one good.

an air of mystery, and wildness in their bones

ALINA BARAZ FT. KHALID - ELECTRIC

Met up with xin yun and che wen today for some sightseeing at the ArtScience Museum, Marina Bay Sands - Future World. Haha, gotta visit that place at least once for all the instagrammable pics! For an early dinner, we headed over to Hyde & Co., somewhere nearby Arab Street, Bugis.

Sometimes, i feel like you're in the room with me

Suddenly reminisced on my Cheese In The Trap drama watching days ♥ᴗ♥
main characters: yoo jung and hong seol




supporting character (love triangle): baek in ho



love the two male leads! and the female protagonist, and the webtoon storyline!

It’s okay to miss them, but it’s not okay to go after them again

AKDONG MUSICIAN - DINOSAUR

So much has happened since I last updated. Met new friends in my part time school, and got to know friend's friends. Also started spending more time with my own friends, cousins and of course dedicating the most amount of time to my family.

Have regretted so many past friendships that I didn't maintain from school, so I'm really glad now that I'm spending time with my closest few.



Went Suntec City with xin yun & che wen and we had dinner at Pasarbella. Afterwhich, we had a destressing session of karaoke, t'was also a mini celebration for myself to end off my first exam in my new course.




Met up with wei qi for dinner at Switch by Timbre. We chilled there, listening to live music while sipping on our drinks. Afterwhich we headed back to Tampines Hub for some random chit-chat, which got really hilarious at certain point.

Kind of envious of budd cause she has so many young colleagues. Look forward to changing jobs in future, and meeting more people, hopefully nice, fun-loving people.

the sun shined like never before, radiating the Earth with its love

Some simple camper vans that has all the basic necessities







and a fully functional one with shower and toilet! I want one too~

we all live in our own separate worlds

G DRAGON - SUPER STAR

25 JUN
Today was THE day, ACT III: M.O.T.T.E (Moment of Truth, The End), GDragon's solo concert in sg ♥ I missed them so much, just seeing them on screens does no comfort to my broken soul. Though I look forward to seeing them all, seeing GD live was just as sufficient.

Our charismatic leader can hold the stage alone for 2 whole hours, like nobody can do! Singing and dancing! He reminds us V.I.Ps, how much faith we should have in BIG BANG's comeback, for leader-nim is always there for them and us ♥ He always manages to pull in the attention of fans of the other members, "all eyes on me" kind of power ˘ᵕ˘ not that anyone's complaining

Anyways, I was 100% immersed in all his performances and songs. As always, leader-nim's songwriting talent never fails~ ^ᵕ^ Towards the middle of his concert, he had this dialogue, talking about who he really is or how he feels about his celebrity self & true personal self. #Feels And all these emotions just overwhelm the fans, probably himself too if he was backstage monitoring.

And how he mentions that he still is confused about himself. Well, I feel the same way as he does. But he's achieved so much more, stardom wise, musically, social circle, carrying himself with intergrity and all (Being the ever polite Kwon Ji Yong towards others)

I feel that maybe we don't have to stop at a point in our lives, and think through such questions "who are we?" "what is our purpose or goal?" "when is the end for each stage in our life?"

Maybe we just have to keep discovering new sides to ourselves, not evolving like physically or mentally, but experimenting with our limits and possibilities.

Questions like "who else will I get to know?", "what more things are there to look forward to?" "which part of the globe have I yet to explore?" "when will I grow out of this insecure stage of myself and be truly happy?" or "can we already be happy, just living this moment?"

he or she may be a star, but us, we are a universe

THE XX - I DARE YOU

23 JUN
Finally, met up with wei qi and ying hui, after a long while! Had mexican food for dinner @ Muchos, Plaza Singapura. Honestly, not that fantastic, but I'm ok with their Quesadillas, which comes with sour cream and was quite tasty. We also ordered a jug of lime margarita, which wei qi said tasted like cough syrup. We were quick to feel tipsy and got pretty excited after catching up lots.

Oh and a certain situation occurred, whereby the waiter asked to see ying hui's ID for our alcoholic drinks. When wei qi and I were rummaging our bags for ours, he turned to us and said, "it's ok, I only need to see hers, cause she looks the youngest here." #offendedmuch Wei qi was so mad that he embarrassed us (>▲<) Afterwhich, aunty qi and us headed to search for a CapitalLand Mall receipt scanning machine for member points. (>_<)

We all agreed that we were tipsy and headed to MacDonalds for some ice cream, before camping there for nearly as long as we did at Muchos. An uncle at the next table was staring at us whenever we laughed a bit too loudly. Well, he should have his attention on all the rowdy teenagers at the other tables. We decided that our next outing was either gnna be a steamboat get-together or a staycation with more alcohol ^ₓ^

Ying hui then headed home at around 11pm, 12am? Wei qi and I felt that the night was still young and she suggested we go to a LAN, despite her having half-day work the next day. Sadly, the LAN shop was full and most of the public transports had already stop functioning. Hence, we walked from dhoby ghaut to suntec city, with no concrete plan in mind.

Thankfully, the night air was pretty breezy. Though we did come across a few hobos on the street, either sitting around or sleeping at a corner. And of course, many party-goers still queuing to enter their clubs (lucky sh*ts with cars)~ Anyway, we sat by an empty bus stop for an hour before finally booking a cab home (was stared for an hour by an unknown man, tough luck). Home sweet home~ ˘ᵕ˘







This picture accurately describes our condition at that moment~




I just had to snap this, caught her unprepared ^▲^

we're all trying to find out who the hell we are

THE STROKES - RAZORBLADE

17 JUN
Today, my cousins and I planned to have some fun @ Playnation again. I went to Shawn & Nicholas' house to meet up with them and Dickson.

Though, Shawn had plans with his friends. Thus, after dinner at their place, Nic, Dickson and I made our way to Our Tampines Hub for 3 hours of fun: Halo, Mario Cart, Just Dance, NBA and FIFA ^_^

After our time at Playnation (10pm - 1am), we headed over to Safra Tampines for some pool, and we took turns versusing each other til 2:45am. We finally ended off our night with some carpool karaoke and supper at MacDonalds (>▲<)







21 JUN
Met up with xin yun and che wen again after cw's trip to korea! And she bought us so many souvenirs~ She bought us a face powder with very cute designs, maccha chocolate, maccha cookie, vitagen gummy sweets, some face masks ^o^

We were lucky enough to snag up a grab car with glass roof #travellinginluxury, and headed over to PIM PAM by FOC in Orchard for some Italiano food; PORK & SCALLOP PAELLA and OCTOPUS GALICIAN STYLE.

Afterwhich, we windowed shopped around Orchard Rd and even visited the newly opened apple store, which was unnecessarily spacious.

And we had our second go with desserts at Lady M, Orchard Central; GREEN TEA MILLE CREPE (my love) ♥v♥ And finally ended our night, leaving for the mrt ard 10pm?

this is her salvation

NOEL GALLAGHER (OASIS) - DON'T GO AWAY

she imagines him imagining her. this is her salvation.
(margaret atwood)




Just a random quote i came across on tumblr today. Annndddd, FINALLY, my redecorated room! (^▲^)

she was surrounded by beauty yet all she felt was melancholy

SYLVAN ESSO - COFFEE

31 MAY
Yay, met up with che wen and xin yun. It has . been . a . long . time since I last saw them. Well, it felt like a long time. We headed to Tengawa Hokkaido White Curry @ Millenia Walk for dinner. Caught up on xin yun's trip to thailand and che wen's upcoming trip to korea. She will be travelling from jeju > busan > seoul. ♥o♥ So envious of her~ I have only been to seoul~














04 JUN And today, my family and I received tickets to a family night event @ Universal Studios Singapore. Sat the Transformers ride with Jared (nephew), my parents and my oldest sister. Was really proud of Jared cause it was his first adult ride, and it was pretty thrilling to be honest. Heard that a few young boys were crying when they exited the ride. At the souvenir shop, I got myself a bumblebee keychain ♥

Sat the Cyclon again (the last time I rode it was 6 years ago with my friends), this time with my oldest sister. I must say, I feel that my body is getting old, as I ain't as use to the speed as when I first took it~ Still, it felt great, to feel the speed, wind and enjoy the night view (even if it means having a few 360 turns) Lastly, we ended off the night watching fireworks

the road less traveled

Love how this couple took the courage and plunged into a lifestyle which people hardly live. And they seem so happy and contented. It also makes much more room for interaction and mutual living, as compared to those huge bungalows in the cities. I think I wouldn't mind living here if my future other half decided to do so

at times, I couldn't grasp the fact that I was part of this scene

GLASS ANIMALS - HAZEY

27 MAY
During the night, aunt gina, the cousins and I decided to spend our weeknight at Playnation @ Our Tampines Hub. So we played the following games: Halo, Pictionary, Jenga, Fifa and WWE. LOL~ (I kind of wanted to try Guitar Hero and Just Dance) Anyways, let the pictures do the telling (>▲<)









After our 10pm to 1am slot at Playnation, we headed to Al Azhar at block 201. I had prata plaster (yum~) & ice teh tarik (of course!) -ᴗ-


28 MAY Today, I spent a whole day with my family, two grannies and my two little nephews. Night time though, had an impromptu Left 4 Dead 2 teamplay with wei qi, ben and marcus.
#pasta #pride #mr.brightside

Actually felt great to have this much fun during this weekend! (>ᴗ<)

that which the sea breaks against

ROBBIE WILLIAMS - SHE'S THE ONE (nostalgia)

Today, I was on mc, off work~ Yippee, though it was due to my swollen right eye -.- Rather than the uncomfortable feeling, I was more concerned over how hideous I look. Anyways, I had lots of spare time in the afternoon, and I finally settled on 'Looking for Alaska', which I left on hiatus for a long period.

You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.
Alaska Young (Looking For Alaska)

Ouch, that was suprisingly close to home~ ¬_¬ Anyways, was so grateful that weiqi (budd) stopped by after work, with some 九鲜 desserts. We ate and caught up under my block ^ᴗ^ I spent the rest of the evening at tampines hub with my mom, wearing sunglasses at night to cover up my swollen eye.

you have just enough light to keep me on my path

MEIKO - WE ALL FALL DOWN

13 MAY
Had yet another realistic dream, but it's been a looong time since I had them. I am with these two guys, just chilling by some stairway. I assume that we are of the same clique, but we're still kind of awkward. And suddenly this girl (daughter of some celebrity) passes by us. And the two of them starts teasing her (we somehow know her?). So I kind of got jealous? frustrated? Futhermore they look like they enjoy pissing her off (which I relate as them liking her).

So I think I like one of them, call him 'guy A'

Skips to the next scene: We are at some skateboarding park. And 'guy A' was the star of the arena, showing off his slick skateboarding moves. Then, in comes this other girl, pretty, bimbo-ish, obviously the popular girl anywhere. She's head over heels for guy A and tries her hand at skateboarding but fails terribly, and retreats to one corner.

Apparently, I was pretty good at it and was casually skating around when i happened upon her misfortune. So i went to her, offered to fix her skateboard and brought it out of the skate park to fix it. All the while she had this disbelief look on her, like, "what is this girl's deal? -.-"

I found a quiet spot among the row of outdoor benches, dimly lit and under the night sky, and dealt with the broken wheels of the skateboard. Shortly after, 'guy A' came out of the skate park, asking me about the situation. I told him and he gave a hearty laugh, judging the popular girl. He then asked me why I chose to seat in such a secluded spot with such bad lighting and I simply answered that I felt comfortable under the dark sky.

He shot a puzzled look. And I went on to say with my focus back on the skateboard,

"Don't you feel that the moon radiates some kind of warmth? Like it will share with you all your deepest darkest secrets. You don't feel pressure or feel exposed, the way you feel under the sun, cause the darkness shields you from stares and projection."

I look up once more, and 'guy A' has his head propped up with one arm, listening attentively to me. I'm wasn't even sure if he understood, or if he was staring into space.


LOL, end of dream, but once I woke up, it was all in my head. Like what would happen if it was actually real... Anyways, end of a sweet dream.

14 MAY It was mother's day today! But I ended up not celebrating it with my mom T_T Well but she's ok about it~ Went to shawn & nicholas' house for some mahjong session with their mom and aunt gina. Their mom also cooked a few dishes, and my grandma was there to celebrate mother's day with us. Turns out that it was also aunt ashley's birthday (I forgot the date ¬ᴗ¬") and she was touched when we all wished her.

enjoy yourself in this world of madness

MUTEMATH - MONUMENT

Today, was a pretty crazy day (>ᴗ<) So nicholas, dickson, aunt gina and I planned a hiking trip (well there aren't many hills or mountains to hike in singapore) to the Botanical Gardens -ᴗ- before that, we headed to Beauty World for some Al Azhar

Anyway, once we stepped into the Botanical Gardens, everything went h*ll crazy. Didn't expect them cousins to be so hyper and full of funny ideas (>▲<) If only I could post the videos up too...








































Title: Maids? posing in a park #PinoyStyle #SoMean (>_<)