attraction, not knowing if it will be returned

SAM SMITH - FIRE ON FIRE

Loads of overthinking this past week, making scenarios out in my own head, mostly negative ones.

There were some disagreements at home too, between the bro and mom :| But things eventually panned out, or in fact just subsides. Like some wave, to a point where both parties don't insist on their argument anymore. Dad lost his appetite over grandma's constant nagging about her home affairs. And he got warded yesterday while he went for his check up :(

He's not in any serious condition or anything, the doctor just suggested that he stayed over so that they could bring forward all his scans and scopes, which initially appointments were spread out over the next few weeks. Also, so that they could provide him with some medication to regain his appetite :>

Was pretty stressed over both events, but somehow "this too, shall pass", and things did indeed get better. For some time, these events made me forget about the constantly revolving question at the back of my mind. Coupled with some series watching on netflix, as well as, watching documentaries. Watched one yesterday about ancient egypt, on four past pharaoh queens, which also led me to refresh my memory on their list of gods too.

Lastly, a more positive song to end the post...

TOM MISCH - YOU'RE ON MY MIND

This too, shall pass
When things are bad, remember:
It won't always be this way.
Take one day at a time.

When things are good, remember:
It won't always be this way.
Enjoy every great moment.

(Persian poem by Farid al-Din Attar)

* googled the poem X)

have patience, heart

THE NEIGHBOURHOOD - STARGAZING

Mundane worklife... only addition to my thoughts are design ideas to our new home. Went tile shopping for the whole house last weekend, with fam and the ID. As well as practiced rollerblading with weiqi. Was trying to lift the board while mobile, however it was super tough with a penny board :|

This weekend, headed to my cousins' place to try their arcade game console with 1000 over games. Was exploring all the random games with nicholas while their girlfriends', mom and dickson were playing mahjong. Played for hours (4?) and had prata for supper :B They were commenting on how I should get one arcade console for my new home ;) nah, i'm contented with nintendo switch.

Weeknights are the usual, watching some tarot readings or random youtube surfing. Haven't been chasing any series recently :\ Last night, my brother introduced us to this Korean series D.P. on netflix, which highlights the undesirable nature of the military. Bullying. And as usual, my mom talked me into accompanying her, to finish watching all 6 episodes.

you're my favourite... and i won't lose you

Recently, playing this Lee Hi song on repeat, Only. The music video speaks for itself, the whole vibe and meaning.

Which reminds me of a quote from the novel/movie, A walk to remember

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
1 Corinthians 13:4-8

When will the dormant earth be shaken? Never losing hope.

the times we've lost, the feels now as the sun caresses my cheek

embrace femininity

Weekdays
Ever since phase 2 relaxed, life still revolves around work on weekdays plus looking forward to MT on thursdays and friday. However, I couldn't join Thursday's lesson due to a last minute request from my sis to help babysit her kids :| I mean I miss them kiddos lots, and it was real nice bonding, interacting with them :) but a part of me feels disappointed too that I couldn't go for MT :(

I went on Friday's lesson though, which left me exhausted. (am thinking if I'm weaker cause I seem to be losing a bit of weight recently. eating regularly though, not on a diet or anything :P) Walked home with budd (weiqi), and as usual, always lots to update each other and talk about. Ranting about her new job scope and mom rushing for her to move onto the next stage of her life ;)

Our moms are just so similar... however I'm way behind her in terms of life stages '_' Need to take more initiative to break out from my current status :')

Saturday
Met up with chewen and xinyun to watch the korean movie 'Sinkhole' as well as headed to Overeasy @ One Fullerton for dinner. Was a bit tipsy afterwards cause I had to gulp down the glasses of wine when the waitress came to inform us that they were clearing the cutlery and dishes. (always clearing the alcohol when out with friends :B)

We then sat by the Merlion and started our conversation on our ideal other halves... XD And xinyun was telling us stories of her friends' relationship problems recently. We were amused at how different our ideal types were; like xy didn't mind someone younger, but not someone older by too much and she was shocked at the age difference that cw and I could accept, for someone older. I guess our preferences do change with age.

Sunday
The Interior Designer dropped by our home today to finalise the discussions on renovation for our new house. Just to touch up the interior with exterior coats of paint of the dingy property aka our new home. My fam decided on going for the colonial type of look.

Afterwhich, met up with weiqi to practice her newly bought skatebought. I brought my penny board which has been rotting in my room since 6 years back? Afterwhich we sat around and chilled with our teh pengs. Felt good to be heading out over the weekends, looking forward to more activities, especially since the govt has eased on the restrictions.

i spent most nights at home falling in love with the idea of you

rhythm and blues (?) soul (?) clueless

Was humming/singing Sleeping At Last - Venus last night while showering, and really loved the lyrics to the song. So here it is...

Sleeping At Last - Venus

The night sky once ruled my imagination
Now I turn the dials with careful calculation
After a while, I thought I'd never find you
I convinced myself that I would never find you
When suddenly I saw you

At first I thought you were a constellation
I made a map of your stars, then I had a revelation
You're as beautiful as endless
You're the universe I'm helpless in
An astronomer at my best
When I throw away the measurements

Like a telescope
I will pull you so close
'Til no space lies in between
And suddenly I see you
Suddenly I see you

I was a billion little pieces
'Til you pulled me into focus
Astronomy in reverse
It was me who was discovered