those random memories that make me smile

MITSKI - MY LOVE MINE ALL MINE

I hope you find someone who never makes you question your own self-worth. I hope you find someone who chases your happiness as much as their own. I hope you find someone who supports you in the things you are passionate about. I hope you find someone whom you can laugh with and sit in silence with and share your deepest secrets with. I hope you find someone who is your lover, your partner, and your friend. I hope you find someone who treats you as their equal, who learns and grows with you and beside you. I hope you find someone who appreciates all the tiny details that make up who you are. I hope you find someone who respects your heart, your family, and your values. I hope you find someone who reminds you that you deserve the love you give.
(Pillow Thoughts, Courtney Peppernell)


Throwback to my favourite quote by ruby dhal which I posted in Nov 2021 http://otteryillusionist.blogspot.com/2021/11/fall-for-someone-who-makes-you-love.html

P.s. lyrics to the 3rd song, a thai song: https://otteryillusionist.blogspot.com/p/joey-phuwasit-na-na-thong.html

thoughts in your darkest moments

BILLIE EILISH - WHAT WAS I MADE FOR

"I didn't believe in soulmates, until I saw you"

Losing hope. Not knowing the destination. Leaving it all to the spirit guides. Hoping for a change. Just want to go on an adventure and leave it all behind :]

Home isn't really a place. It's the people, or a person. Looking forward to finding my home, and snuggling up.

only you can give me that feeling

PALACE - HEAVEN UP THERE

UvU

Not sure if it is cause of the moon cycles or planetary shifts, I realised I've been more moody this week. Not temperamental, just downcast, and quieter. Less bubbly and smiley... wonder if people around me feel the same way, and whether they have been wondering why~

Not that there has been any negative events in my life, just my drunkard dad (ever since he has recovered from his eye operation), back to square one for him where nothing can scare him or deter him away from alcohol. Back to drinking. At least he's drinking less than 1-2 years back. I don't think my mom and I can handle him if he goes back to that episode.

And maybe I'm moody cause I've been reflecting. On the probability of something I have been secretly pining for, for the last 2 years. But recently, I think I'm more ready to let go... and leave it to the universe. Whether it unfolds or not~ Have been coming across lots of videos and signs, reminding me to focus more on myself, and to daydream less

once you've met someone, you never really forget them

THEE SACRED SOULS - WILL I SEE YOU AGAIN

general update
Time flies~ So after my fight, my birthday flew by, followed by the three coaches' birthdays. Then came yann's fight (>ᴗ<), which we were all stoked for, and she performed so well! Made us proud! Then we celebrated for her, as usual ¬ᴗ¬ Just the two pairs of couples, weiqi and myself (Drinks and lots of singing at HiFun). The next highlight was our XU 10km run XvX (which we are going for another Lazada run in July), freaking tired but the sense of accomplishment after that... with them gurls~

And the biggest event this year... yann and jay's wedding in may, at nrscc. Joined their afternoon reception with charlene, as well as their night party with the rest ^v^ The night was a little more chaotic (beer, whiskey, drunk card games), and once again the trainers couldn't stay longer as they had classes the next morning. Ended the night/morning with prata for supper, after sending weijie home

Recently, linder, bjorn, gary and sam are training for the next big fight (similar to a diamond fight night), wishing them lots of perserverance, esp for training~
And the usuals recently went for another round of Mitsuba plus Aura :] Crazy night as usual, hehehe... didn't expect it but yeah... :,)


and this is the merged videos of years 2022 and 2023, with music :)

Family means no one gets left behind or forgotten

JVKE - GOLDEN HOUR

Royston & Faar's wedding 03.06.2023

your eyes tell

HAYD - HEAD IN THE CLOUDS

How long do people usually stay in our lives? Family, forever; Friends or Lovers, depends on each relationship; Soulmates, some people pass each other by without knowing...

Just a thought. Because life's a little more fast paced these days, even my mom commented on how the days/nights seem to pass by more quickly. Some things or people, we hope to spend more time knowing, may not be there for long... So, just a reminder to cherish those beside you, those you really appreciate.

Same with any goals, aspirations or bucket list that one has. Life is short, we should set out to achieve them while we can. #noregrets I'm really dreading my 9 to 5 job these days, thinking about all the travelling I could have done, or the countless hobbies and interests I could hone.