Everybody hurts

Had another dream :|

So I dreamt of a guy I met recently (we were from the same school & lecture). Shall name him "R".

In the dream, I was having a crush on him. And he was always surrounded by girls who were much prettier than I am. Luckily for me, I had a guy best friend (I can't rmb his face), who was always by my side to encourage me whenever I lost hope in pursuing this dream like guy, R.

Anyway, there came a day when my best friend thought of a plan for "R" to notice me, and we started out to make him a journal. It was filled with notes of love and letters proclaiming my attraction to him. My best friend further beautified it with his drawings of cartoons.

And finally, I met R, in a dimly lit restaurant. Though I felt that something was off with him. He had this sunken look and showed disinterest in whatever I said. Then I said, "You can tell me what's wrong. The reason why you're feeling like this." He then threw me a death stare and replied, "Don't think you can get closer to me by doing so."

At that moment, I felt something in me shatter. Not wanting to force this friendship (or hopefully a relationship) any further, I excused myself and left. Throughout that, R was emotionless. Outside, my best friend was waiting for me with a worried look.

At that moment, I promised myself that I'll not pursue this fairytale like romance any more, and to put those around me through those feelings of concern for me. Although I knew it wasn't intentional that R treated me that way (he had probably been through a rough situation), I decided to put down those made up emotions towards him.

INGRID MICHAELSON FT
A GREAT BIG WORLD - OVER YOU