"I wonder if I've been changed in the night? Let me think: Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I'm not the same, the next question is "Who in the world am I?""
(Alice In Wonderland)
Attached? Detached? Both sounds sad to me. And maybe I'm both. I think I fit this statement perfectly, "If you always prevent yourself from getting hurt, you will never now how to deal with the pain." The reason why I'm always stuck at one point, is probably because I have no courage to deal with the unknown, particularly new faces.
I'll gladly face up to any adrenaline pumping adventures or encounters BUT to meet new people, having to go through the long process of knowing them... Yikes. INTERACTION~ Recalling on my past experiences, I probably dread new faces cause of my childhood encounters with classmates bullying. *Geesh* I remember, at that young age of 6, I was ganged up against by a boy and a girl. They literally tormented me for that whole year :S DISGUST.
But in a good way, it helped me be who I want to be. I grow to love this solitude. Other than my small group of friends and my family, I have more time for imagining and resting. The popular "roo ra" kids in school aren't really who I aspired to be. Ironically, I was a chatter-box when a kid, constantly asking questions and getting hyper at every family outing :)
THE EELS - BLINKING LIGHTS
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