madness blurs away

It just so happens that something inside her has physically shaken my heart. So, then, why am I so concerned about the pajamas she had on her body? Why did I (almost unconsciously) pick them up and smell them?
(Haruki Murakami)


He studies the girl before him, who is chatting and monkeying around with his buddies. No matter how hard he tries to distance himself from her, a simple smile or laughter of hers would cause tingles in his heart. She approaches him this time and expresses her worry over his restless expressions. He denies his condition and walks away, coldly.

She has been used to his recent ignores and cold replies, still she could not suppress the surfacing agony in her heart. For her, it is as if she has finally hit rock bottom. Where had their friendship gone? His sniggers, his smiles, his jokes, his laughters and his cuddles, all of which were specially for her. They were best buddies among the band of brothers. And to think that she had wish for something more.

He hides himself in a corner, safe from her vision. He can feel his insides pounding and the replaying images of her, showing her concern just minutes ago. He was overjoyed. He had forgotten since when did he fall for his best friend and colleague. Which reminds him, of the strictly no dating rule. As forbidden as their relationship may be, he could no longer oppose the attraction he have towards her.

Alas, he found someone comparable to his family and band of brothers, who makes him feel safe and home.

ELIZABETH GILLIES - WILD HORSES

That aeroplane in our hearts

If you remember me, then I don't care if everyone else forgets.

(Haruki Murakami)

You don't know how I feel about you. It's not just what you see in my eyes or feel in my emotions. You cause the tingles in my veins and the strong pulses of my heartbeat whenever I fall for you over again. You have already gotten into my system so don't ever think of leaving me, unprogrammed. Cause then, life would be meaningless.

ADELE - DAYDREAMER

nobody said it was easy

I still loved the people I've loved, even if I cross the street to avoid them.

(Uma Thurman)

When did we start, start losing the spark between us
We’re like a drained cola that’s lost its fizz
The first feeling of going numb, glancing at each other sideways
I’m not hanging myself over such a love, don’t wanna try no more

I’m scared that these stars will hurt me (so what so what)
I miss the moment when I first met you (no more no more)
Bad when it comes to pain like that, I try to avoid it
But You know that I love you girl girl girl

My memories look towards you, who I have forgotten in my heart

ELIZABETH GILLIES - FOR NO ONE

a world inside of me

When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach so
She ran away in her sleep

Right now, forty thousand
Four hundred and four
Creatures are happily,
Deeply in slumber.


The above are not correlated :)
Was deep in thoughts last night, probably because I didn't wanna worry for my test. But I'm all the more worried for my future 'cause I realised that without a goal in life, I will lack passion and enthusiasm in no matter what I do! And one reason I couldn't find any target to reach might be due to the fact that my future had been planned, which is to aimlessly study the few main subjects in school and reach university :(

“Why are people sad? That’s simple. They are the prisoners of their personal history. Everyone believes that the main aim in life is to follow a plan. They never ask if that plan is theirs or if it was created by another person. They accumulate experiences, memories, things, other people’s ideas, and it is more than they can possibly cope with. And that is why they forget their dreams.”
(Paulo Coelho)

COLDPLAY - PARADISE

happy birthday patricia :)

We are like a single family — but an extended family engaged in an endless battle, united by deep wounds to the heart, each bearing some undefined absence.

(Haruki Murakami)

2PM - I CAN'T

Those patterns take away my time

I dream. Sometimes I think that's the only right thing to do.

(Haruki Murakami)

Finally, my mind has cleared out the clouds of mist. I "think" I'm a little more awake from this recent story that I've been daydreaming of. It is so addictive, coupled with a dream that I had of it. If there is such thing as inception, I might choose to live in that dream forever! But finally, I have my life back... :)

PHANTOGRAM - MOUTH FULL OF DIAMONDS

A silhouette in dreams

Sometimes when I look at you, I feel I'm gazing at a distant star. It's dazzling, but the light is from tens of thousands of years ago. Maybe the star doesn't even exist any more. Yet sometimes that light seems more real to me than anything.
(Haruki Murakami)

And you? Now that I have discovered you? Beautiful, dangerous, unleashed. Still, I try to hold you, knowing that your body is faced with knives.

(Jeanette Winterson)

ERIN MCCARLEY - LOVE, SAVE THE EMPTY

Hard, smooth and far away

I began to draw an invisible boundary between myself and other people. No matter who I was dealing with, I maintained a distance, carefully monitoring the person's attitude so they wouldn't get any closer.

(Haruki Murakami)

It's a painstaking wait to watch the drama, "An Extravagant Challenge". But it's worth it :) I'm falling for the characters more than the actual actors and actresses! All thanks to their superb acting skills, which is simply mesmerising.

but you were always a rose

Last day of first year of school. No matter how evil and dreadful school was, my clique and I are all innocent. And victims as well. Hence, we joined forces ever since the first semester and forged a bond stronger than ever, in resistance to the master of evil - school. But now, the resistance will soon be over as we move on to new classes and forge new bonds. Maybe for better or worse, but never as fun as before. And so others will say their goodbyes, but we will just pass each remaining days with fun and laughter, unwilling to be reminded of the harsh reality, or pour our heartbreaks.

The fact that each and every single one of us are strong-willed, we will move on with our memories. Occasionally, we might meet up for lunches, or we might just learn to let go and search for better memories. I am already used to such break ups, and scenarios of friends turning into strangers. With no contacts, nor reminisce, due to busy schedules, one is sure to forget their past "best(ies)". At the very least, we will turn up for each other's marriage, and say our well wishes. And as we look at the girl in her veil, or the boy in his tuxedo, we remember of how they use to poke fun of the others or curse and swear at each other. Most of all, we remember their smiles and their laughter, and their never ending awkward moments.

So what's with a short split up now, when we would all the more cherish the time spent together, five years down the road...

"Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting."
(Peter Pan)

nightmares are dreams too

And I was just reminiscing how carefree it was when I was younger, with no aspirations and standards to chain one down. It was a period when nobody would truly blame you for anything.

And as I grew older, people start to pin hopes on you and blame you for almost anything despite your innocence. You start to grow cautious of the things you do and say and you learn how never to let down your hair so as to not fall behind.

You grow tired and find no meaning in living a life scripted out by others. And sometimes, I just wish to leave these all behind and be able to travel somewhere far. Maybe I could just get lost in another dimension or a hallucinated world :)

But it's just not possible.

THE REAL TUESDAY WELD - LAST WORDS

less is more, nothing is everything

It was a holiday in march and they had a random meet up at the last minute :) A great day. They made up for my birthday celebration too!







Another random reunion in my school! ^^ Wanted to mug tgt but to no avail ;P



Last day of year one tgt in B20 :( It was sad but inevitable. Hoped for the best in the next class, especially when the experience with this class is unforgettable!



An outing after the last paper with my groupies :) Sushi and singing, lots and lots of singing @-@ Pleasurable day of fun~!



And finally, today, we had another movie outing! THIS MEANS WAR! yeah!
Honestly, I didn't have much expectations towards this movie as I didn't recognise the actors/actresses from the poster. However, as the movie began... I see a well-known actress and a talented actor from previous films :)
Adding to that, I loved the flow of the movie! And how it balances romance, comedy and action all into one great movie :D (Just like a finely spread egg mayo on a subway hearty italian bread)



But most of all, zaizai and I were attracted to Tuck Henson from the start of the movie. He had this action packed vibe in everything that he did, a charismatic grin, a cool personality and his cute laughter
>.< Loved the character!

BIG BANG - AIN'T NO FUN

faith, a fire in the heart

He stares deep into the abyss of my eyes,
And for that moment,
I know he's the only one who will
Ever truly understand me.

As we lock gazes on the bench,
he leans closer and slides his hands
Between my hair and jaws
And our lips meet.

"No matter how far apart we are,
even if we have our own relationships,
How impossible it is between us,
You will always be the one that
I want to show the most love to."

ANGUS & JULIA STONE - AND THE BOYS

Soft as the summer breeze

The thick clouds like his dark, beautiful brows
And the rising pink hue of sunlight reminds of
his gradual but alluring smile.

His over dramatic laughter drowns my sorrows
And it melts my heart to see how
he peeks at me for my reactions to those jokes.

As the rest of them leave, he gives me a warm pat on the head
And send currents down my spine as he chuckles at me sweetly.

THE TEMPER TRAP - LOVE LOST

Water-coloured memories

Today was a great one :) Will our friendship last?
P.S. THANKS GUYS FOR THE UNFORGETTABLE YEAR

"Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting."
(Peter Pan)

MODEST MOUSE - FLOAT ON