understands you even in madness

AMTRAC - SUMMER'S OVER

(28/08) Yet to get my hands on the photos of my cousin's brithday: Dickson's 21st :B


(29/08) Met up with Wei Qi (Qi), Ying Hui (Choong) & Seraph (Seet) for lunch @ Percolate, Bedok. Caught up loads on Choong & Seet's Uni lives as well as Choong's experience in Berkeley, California. As usual, 3 hours passed by as we sat chatting in the cafe :D






(29/08) Celebrated my 2nd sis birthday over a seafood feast @ Jumbo seafood, East Coast Park. Although my family is prone to squabbles and are sometimes insensitive to each other, I'm so thankful that they can be so cheerful and transparent in front of each other. We can just lay any discussion on the table, for the others to know about :)








(30/08) Celebrated Alvin's 21st birthday in advance!! :D I find comfort in the fact that, after months of absence in each other's live, Alvin, Leck Qi and I are still close with each other. Gtta thank them for their sensitivity and thoughtfulness, of remembering all the nitty gritty details. And it makes me do the same for them.

all those who chase fantasies

Was scrolling through instagram, as usual, observing people's lives. And I suddenly felt very small and purposeless. Compared to others' lives with dreams, talents through hard work, or simply those who went on to further their studies.

And here I am, living in comfort whereby I help out with my family's business. Not much stress, and not much sense of accomplishment, but in a safe boundary from the harsh working world (a cradle of warmth and love I've been in since young).

The thoughts that came up: how am I to make a living in the future? income for my parents, aging by the day? support for my own future family? what will i be doing 10, 20 years later? is my plan of being a housewife still feasible?

And it sent shivers down my spine. The helpless that I feel only at age 21... the excuse that it's too late to start something anew, or that I can always make changes in my life at a later stage... but I should start RIGHT NOW!

Sat in bed, with all these thoughts overwhelming my head. And I felt the urge for a warm hug of comfort. I could have cried but I didn't allow myself too. It seemed like a form of escape at that moment. Then I tried reaching out to god, and I felt a lot calmer.

He didn't really give an answer but i think he kind of pushed me in the right direction? I stopped freaking out and my mind became clearer. Like, "okay, what is step one right now" Thank you ♥

KEIRA KNIGHTLY - LIKE A FOOL

detached

Feels real detached from society these days, and I get by the days living in my own world~ A world full of korean entertainment and my family
Like how am I supposed to find my other half if this is how I am living 10 years down the road

FOSTER THE PEOPLE - THE TRUTH

maybe you are magic

Love the chic duo and that dopey dance oٮo

And the sentimental guy

time topples everyone in its path equally

Here wishing Banana Budd tip-top conditions for all your tests!
And hwaiting for your mugging right now ٩(͡⊙□⊙)۶

WINNER - COLOUR RING

as quiet as the ocean depth

literally how my life feels right now, just WORK and HOME~ Not very pleasing when your workplace doesn't have anyone your age :\

And today was one of the very few times I initiated a meet up with the girls (I'm usually dormant -.-"), but glad I did so :)
Really miss hanging out with my friends, whether during secondary school or poly

LEESSANG - SERENADE

souls secretly smiling

Enjoy~!

Experience has taught me that I will not be won over by grand gestures or by sweet, poetic speeches. I will be won over by banter, by silence under the stars, by comfortability and the silent promises made only by two people who have known the privilege of time.
(Isa Garcia)

YOO JIAE - DELIGHT

Hope it brightens our mondays~ ! :D

OHANA

More updates on the dashing brothers~ I'm getting more and more drawn into Jairus' mesmerising eyes *ٮ* #JARED #JAIRUS

25 HOURS - สุขาอยู่หนใด (WHERE'S THE BATHROOM)

pure love :)

Recently recalled an m/v which moved me when I was younger. I cried over it. A song by Death Cab for Cutie - I Will Follow You Into the Dark. Though sadly, the music video is no longer available on youtube now ᵕ_ᵕ

DANIELA ANDRADE - I WILL FOLLOW YOU INTO THE DARK