ERIK SATIE - GYMNOPEDIE NO. 1
I'm just gonna vent my frustrations here. I hate it when people treat another person like dirt. Being a victim myself, I feel like whatever i do, isn't appreciated. But everyday, I go through some form of reproaching, whether at work or even from my closest ones.
I have thought about it, whether I'm an easy target for others to vent their frustrations just because I'm too quiet (or nice?),because I'm meek?, because I'm the youngest at home, or because they are superior to me at work.
Fact is, people habitually direct their anger and frustrations at someone else, thinking that it may lessen their own?! Or simply because they want others to feel their dejection?
There was a period in my life (7 to 11) when I was more comfortable around adults or younger children, because I felt like I couldn't keep up with my peers in terms of their topics of interests, or to simply socialise with them. I became pretty introvert, having only a small circle of friends.
Anyway, during those times, I felt that it was the adults who aren't judgemental (probably cause I was only a child at that time). However, ironically, now that I am an adult, I find that we are the most judgemental of all. We juddge others based on their appearances, education level, capabilities, sociability, confidence, blah blah blah all that sh*t.
Not saying that I'm very judgemental, but I just don't wnna be too hypocritical by excluding myself. I judge people sometimes too, based on first impressions, but I don't let that affect my views on them. And I realised that many times, we are very wrong with our first impressions! Like if you truly observe, another person, you'll find a lot of wondrous attributes of him/her.
So it brings me back to my ranting~ Just because I may seem blur or not as street smart as some people, it doesn't mean I'm a dumbass! There are times when I know stuffs too, but don't flaunt them around. And when others question your capabilites or usefulness, it really hurts one's self-esteem!
And can we stop with all the blaming?! I'm not a deity who can predict the good from bad outcomes. And when the same mistakes are made by someone, I know I wouldn't jump at the opportunity to put them down.
So i think every social environment could use a bit more of respect, patience and chances given. Cause each one of us is definitely good with something, maybe not the best, but just to acknowledge that one good.
